I messed up

I saw her when she walked in

On the arms of another man

Smiling in his face and looking happy

And it killed me

Knowing that her eyes

Will never again light up for me

And it hurts even more

Seeing that the current joy of her heart

Was once my best friend

Lost Love

  • I loved you so  much
    That I allowed you to walk away
    Even if your happiness is with someone else
    It breaks my heart to know
    That you’ll never hold me again
    That I won’t feel secure in your arms
    That I won’t lay on your chest, and listen to your heartbeat
    That I’ll never look you in the eyes and see love for me in them
    No I won’t get any of that anymore
    Someone else will feel the love that I had imagined
    Someone else will feel the joy that I can’t get back
    Someone else will experience all of you
    And it won’t be me it’s never been me
    It’s always been you without me
    Now you and her together
    You now see yourself as a unit
    You now hold her with love
    You now kiss her with tenderness
    You now listen to her fears
    You now become her superhero
    You now…..you now love her
    And even though that breaks my heart
    Even though my heart cries
    Even though I feel alone I’m happy for you
    And I have hope that one day….
    One day I’ll get to experience
    All the things I imagined were real with you

Unexpected June 30, 2016

We were losing the chemistry

We kept arguing

But I still thought we could make it

Because I thought we loved each other

Guess I was wrong

Because you don’t give up on someone you love

You fight for them

You fight with them

Until you both come out on top

 But that’s not how it went

Just as I thought we were heading to a better place

You pulled the plug…prematurely

But I’m not mad at you

I am but I’m not

 You weren’t man enough to handle me

you were busy trying to imitate your father

Forgetting that you are your own person

We were both wrong, we were both right

But you couldn’t see my point

And I refused to bend to your will

It was like a game of tug of war

Both pulling at different ends and never on the same side

You chose to walk away

But I can say that’s okay

Because I checked out