Pages of Love

Its cold and lonely and yet

Comfortable 

Used to the stillness

To the bite of my mistakes keeping me company

The shiver of loneliness that holds me

The bleakness of nothingness 

The nakedness of EVERYTHING 

Cold, exposed with no growth

And in the stillness of it all

A light calls to me

Trying to lure me in with its warmth

With peace that is unimaginable in the abyss 

With a joy that doesn’t exist in the pits

With an elevation of the mind, body and soul

It calls me

And so I reach 

I’ve been sitting still for so long

Sitting in my guilt

Drowning in my shame

Overwhelmed by my mistakes 

And yet it calls me

And so I reach out 

Shifting for the first time in forever

Releasing the guilt, the shame, the mistakes

Rolling it off and reaching for the warmth

Now desperate for the peace, the lightness

The wholeness that this light, this warmth wants to bring out

From within me

From the depths I knew not existed

Yes

Yes

YES

Give me light

Give me peace

Give me joy 

Give me warmth

Give me light

Give me Jesus

From which peace is found

From which hope dwells 

From which love lives

Yes

Yes

YES

Give me Jesus